Today I was adventuring through Borders with Lara, Caity, and Jake when we discovered probably the worst book ever written. I don’t even remember the name of it, but the premise of it was a bunch of warrior cats trying to save their cat clan. To top it all off, it was placed on a table surrounded by a million vampire novels. If Stephanie Meyer can’t even write the vampire books well, I don’t know why any of these other authors think they can.
But anyways. Perhaps the most interesting part of this cat warrior novel was the fact that it had a sticker on the front that boasted the “adventure game” in the back of the book. I started wondering to myself how you could possibly have a game in a book, so of course my curiosity got the best of me and I flipped to the back. It turned out to be one of those “choose your adventure” type games where you read a story scenario and then you choose an option that leads you to another different part of the story.
So that got me thinking. You go through the little adventure game, picking whatever scenario sounds best to you or whichever one you think will produce the most ideal outcome. Then you get to the end and read what happens to you. If you like it, you’re satisfied, you put the game down. If you don’t like it, you can go back and choose a different path, ultimately giving you a completely different ending that may or may not be more satisfying than the last.
What if that was real life? What if at any given point you could go back and pick everything differently? Let me say this: if you know me at all, you know that I don’t regret what I’ve done. I learn from it and move on, trying to avoid future mistakes. But I always wonder “what if?” (Let’s be honest, who doesn’t ever wonder that?) I am just curious to see what would have happened if I picked different options. Where would I be now?
I especially wonder what would have happened if I had picked different friends when I was younger and all through growing up. I firmly believe that my friends have shaped the person I am now, and if I would have had different friends earlier on, I think I’d be completely different. It’s just something really interesting to ponder. I also thought about the little things in life, the tiny details that I missed the first time around and didn’t realize I missed them until later on. What if I would have noticed those right as they occurred? Where would I be now?
I find it completely ironic that on the last day of winter, it was 65* and sunny out, a perfectly beautiful day. I wake up the next morning on the first day of spring, expecting to go on an 11 mile run with my running group at the rec, and find that it’s about 32* and there’s a blizzard roaring outside. Figure that one out.
Of course, Missouri’s bipolar weather would allow for it to be sunny and in the mid 50s again today, so it made for a pleasant (yet hilly) 6 am run and a refreshing walk to my 9 am class. I’ve been strolling around campus this morning decked out completely in Victoria’s Secret clothing with oversized sunglasses, tuned into my iPod, a Starbucks iced non-fat no-whip white mocha in one hand and my Blackberry in the other. Could I be any more of a girl? Perhaps.
Now, I shall digress to other thoughts running around in my head. Last night I was up until about 2 am, sitting on the floor in my dorm bathroom with Caity. College life at its finest, no? However, we were up because we were making a “Constitution for Summer 2010.” A list of things to be sure to do, things to avoid, and things that should be avoided but will inevitably happen anyways. Naturally, this constitution was filled with absurd and hilarious things, most of which should never be seen by anyone else’s eyes, and it kept us giggling into the wee hours of the night, even though I had to wake up at 5 am (hence the Starbucks I have now).
But it got me thinking…why just make a constitution for the summer? Why not make a constitution for life? Or at least life at the present time, since life is always evolving and changing? So that led me to start formulating my own personal constitution, and I guess I’d like to share it with the general public (not that the general public, or hardly anyone for that matter, reads this). It’s a work in progress. I’ll add and delete things as necessary, but these are a few things that I’d like to start living by, in no particular order.
1. Be selfless - I want to focus on those around me and figure out how I can benefit their lives more frequently. I want to make people smile more often. 2. Be passionate - I want to always be motivated, to always be involved in something meaningful to me, and to give it my all. 3. Be healthy - I want to run at least two halfs a year, maybe building up to a full marathon soon. I want to eat more nutritious vegetarian meals to make sure my body can keep up with me. 4. Be hopeful - I never want to lose the hope that I constantly have. Hope is always there to help me see the silver lining in the worst situations. 5. Be inspirational - I want to make a difference to someone else and inspire them to change something in their life for the better. At the same time, I want to be inspired and change things in my own life, too.
…to be continued? I think I’ve written more than enough for one sitting, and I should probably be doing something more productive anyhow.
I’ve had this tumblr for a few weeks now and haven’t quite figured out the right time to actually start using it. I figure tonight is as good a night as any, so let’s give it a shot. A note to the readers: don’t get me wrong, you’re more than welcome to read my ramblings, but I’m not sure how exciting it’ll be for you…anyhow, I digress.
So I’m starting to find out that having 2 majors and potentially 1 minor really sucks. Yes, I know anyone could have easily told me this, but I’m an overly-ambitious person and I like to think I can do everything. Usually I’m wrong. However, I have to find out for myself because I’m stubborn like that. Anyhow, I was just looking over the next few years of classes (which, yes, I’ve already planned out…go ahead, call me an over-achiever), and I’m really not sure how I’m supposed to graduate in 4 years. I’m pretty sure the answer is that I can’t.
Additionally, I’ve also been wondering lately if it’s even beneficial for me to have the 2 majors that I do. I mean, come on, Atmospheric Science and Magazine Journalism? Those two majors are about as related as Hitler and Gandhi were. I keep pretending like it’s going to work out fantastically and I’ll have some superb dream job one day, but if we’re being honest, I don’t think anyone would hire a storm chasing journalist. Therefore, I have no idea where I’m going to end up in life. But at this point, does anyone?
Conclusion: drop out of college and become a….stripper? Walmart greeter? Complete failure?